Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I cannot tell a lie.....

I can not pretend that the last two years of my life have been complete bliss.

I can not act like I haven't had my doubts.

In you and in me.

I can not pretend like the journey we started together 24 months ago, has been nothing but roses.

I can not sit here and fictitiously state that you always remember to tell me I'm beautiful and that you believe in me.

Because let's be honest.

You forget.

I can not tell a lie.

Because I refuse to be THAT phony.





I can not act like marriage has not been one of the most challenging ventures I have ever been faced with.

Because it has.

I cannot fake the simple fact that we easily lose patience with each other.

And I can not pretend like I don't want to choke you 3-6 times a week.

Because generally I want to.

But I refrain (no worries, Corey is not a battered husband)




But here is what else I can not fake.

I can not pretend like you aren't my best friend.

You are my best friend.

I can not act like my heart doesn't melt when you hold my hand.

Because it melts.

I can not act like you aren't my favorite snuggle partner.

You are my favorite snuggle partner.

I can not act like it is easy to beat you in rummikub.

Because that is NOT easy.





I can not pretend to be disappointed with the man that you've become.

Because I AM NOT disappointed.


I can not pretend that I don't believe in you.

I believe in you.

I believe in our plans.

Even if they are just 'plans' for now.



I can not pretend that you will be a lame dad.

Let's face it you're going to rock the socks off fatherhood.






I can not pretend that if faced with the decision all over again that I would choose differently.

I would choose you all over again.

I would choose this journey with you, knowing all that I know.



I can not pretend like I am always an easy person to love.

I can not pretend that my anxieties and insecurities are NOT a road block that we are constantly struggling to overcome.

I am grateful for your patience (which seems to be much more extensive than my own).

I am grateful for a husband that loves me when it's good and when it's ugly.

Cause let's not pretend like it doesn't get ugly.

I am grateful that you make me laugh at times when I want to sob.

I am so blessed to be your wife.

I am so happy to have celebrated our 2nd anniversary.

I am so eternally grateful for all the struggles we've learned to power through together.

I am grateful to call you my partner, companion, friend and husband.

I love you precious.

Happy Anniversary



7 comments:

  1. Oh so sweet!
    ♫♪♫ Happy Happy Anniversary ♫♪♫

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  2. so romantic. i didn't know we shared the same anniversary! i knew we were close....but not that close! fun. on my fb status i told sean happy anniversary. does that count as romantic? man i suck.

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  3. This post rocks my socks off...haha! I'm so glad that you were honest, because let's face it, NO ONE's marriage is perfect. You reminded all of us of the reasons we love our spouse--holding hands, making plans--and to not get discouraged because we fight sometimes (or even a lot). Marriage takes work, but it is so worth it in the end! Love you guys!

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  4. Krystle, I am so glad you and Corey found each other. I am also so excited to see you guys in a couple of weeeks and then come back and see you again a couple weeks later. Congrats on two years! Love you guys.

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  5. Two years. And not an easy two years. It deserves a big congratulations!

    I appreciate a girl who can tell it like it really is.

    Happy Anniversary!

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  6. LOVED this post! Krystle, lets face it... YOU are one of my favorite people!

    Take Kristen's FB advice... write a book!

    Love ya girl!!!

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